Serendipity

today woke up early just to try and talk to him Kinda stupid…. considering that its three hrs after over here then in sanjose so when i woke up it was like 6 so it was three in sanjose -_- stupid. well well then then then we did this thing for buddah and stuff [ have no idea wats its callled in english :D ] then then at three spa i went to go get facially [ I DIDNT WANT TO GO!! ] it was ok i guess…. [ lieing it was BLAHH ] haha jk jk it was really ok(: i liekd the lady but i really didnt want to go. hmmmm it was hekka raining… and after i finished i got a FREE SMOOTHIE!! and i repeat FREE:p well it was nice view, was kinda sad it was rainin so yeah normal. but then after we went to eat japanese food HELLA GOOD but some of the stuff hella hard to eat -_- we basiclly at raw fish the whole time. and everything was pre order. and like like they dont giev you a freken huge dish, they give you small proshins at a time. to try everything HELLA FULL THOUGH the guy was cool(: we talked the whole time. and and the table was so SMOOTH i couldnt stop rubbing it :p well then after went and saw this Cartoonnetwork store and and and a statue of YODA WAS IN THERE!! it was cool(: then i got leggings and argue alot with aunt.. and yeah(: so that was my day KINDA. :p

yesterday i went to central park which was nice. ridin ad cariage. OMG the horse were NUMBERED. so sad i saw the numbers. i had a Mr.frosty Yummm.then at  night i went to braodway to watch little mermaid(: it was good i got a dinglehopper[brush/fork] took lots of picture while walkin. they didnt let me take pictures dure the show -_- i only got one picture in the beginning. but its ok(: ummmm more drama anf arguments but its fine because i have mu michelle right there for me(: i wonder when im goin to see her again… well well well i hope wat people tell me arent true and liek idk idk idk i hate it when people do things liek that though -_- i hate rumors and i love Haters :p

YUMMMY last night i had pinkberry and then we are goin back again tonight(: it was yummy(: Oh yeah be jealous.(:well last night was july27 but its ok(: i thought of him the whole day but i wasnt sad i just had fun(: hmm i went to time square and got michael his shirt it doesnt say i <3 ny but it says newyorkCity its close enough and and it is COOLIER(: umm got stefanie somthing and hmm oh i got the BIGGEST bar of chocolate at the hershey store(: it costed me liek 40 buck(: but but it worth it at the end of teh day i spent like 90 buck or more on chocolate<3 and and and like 34 on newyork stuff(: hehe just in one night. Oh and i took Lots of pictures(:

tomorrow was goin to be our 2nd month. and i want him back so badly but idk. i guess to him im not worth the wait. if im not worth the wait then wat am i worth i really want to cutt so badd right noww but i promise and i feel like dieing but family. i dont know. it hurts so much. i really just wish he would wait for me i want him to be right there for me waiting with open arms but i guess im not worth it. well you see he hurted me so much but i want him back i want to be in his arms i want my lips to touch his i want to be able to call him mine. i want him right here next to me i want to cry on him. i want his arms around me. i just wish we were ment to be. thats way i wont have to go thourgh all this shiet. but oh well… im the worst and thats wat i think because you know wat johnson have i ever made you happy, No. all ive done is make you sad. im sorry for hurting you. and if you read this i still love you alot and i really want you back. but if you would be happier without me then i guess ill just be fine. all i want is to see your smile once more. The quote “someone asked me if i missed you. i didn’t answer. i just closed my eyes and walked away. then whisper “So Much…” ” is how i feel like everday it feels liek evryone is askin me that every single day and all i can do is cry]: why cant i forget about you. i feel like my heart has been torn out of my chest and broken in two</3 i couldnt even stop crying today. and wat if i do cut would he even care? does he even care? if i was dead would you even know? would he even go to my funeral? 2 month, wow. i miss you. i really want to be with you again but i promised. the only person i wanted was him. so i thought the promise would be easy, since it seemed liek he was over me, and we wouldnt even have another chance of being called US but then i find out he didnt and now i regret makin that promise. but if he really loved me, wouldnt he wait…?</3 well baby…. if your reading this i love you and always will liek i said i would love you foever and forever more. and if you do move on thats good for you im proud of you. have a great life.

Love,yenni]:

lefty; His SOO CUTE(:

Blah i wanted to go walk around downstairs grocery and everything and like start shoppin(: but but but but but NO KEY! blahh but but but idk ill wait i guess ill firgure somthing ouw its just 11 am over here i have time(: my goal is to get two thing off the list i think im get kathy her Hobo posing picture(: and michael his i <3 Ny shirt(: hmm im really bored no one is ever on this early everyone still sleepin since its like 8 over in sanjose blahhh blahh blahh hmmm all of last night i played with lefty(: his so CUTEE. hmm i took picture of building WITH lights so does that count stefanie o.O; well hmm i should brysh my teeth just woke up(: oh and SANDER WHAT HAPPEN I THOUGHT YOU WERE GOIN TO PICK UP THIS TIME. disappointed -_-

Hmmmmm well you see im talkin to my poopy right now and im in Ny right now, and its 3:21am here and over there in sanjose its 12:21am. and and liek BUTTFACEPOOPHOLE is gay and i think i liek gayguy alot better(: well oh well hmmm im bored havent blogged in awhile since i been goin thourgh hella shiet but yeah. ima tryy and get hobo picture tomorrow(: and and and my poopy is bored and im not helpin. im just all quiet typing this(: well well poopy youll understand after i finish because

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hehe thats hwo much i love my jeffery(: well stefanie benny loves you Fshoo my hand hurts now HAHA well well well well well well well well well well well poopy is hungry and i should be sleepin but oh well :p well well well well well HI idk >< umm wat happen today….. HELLA DRAMA SHIET but its ok i have poopy and will and fruitloops(:

we been thourgh alot

and at the end

we both came to separating roads

there and then we went our separate ways

didnt even care to look back

then a day came

and we saw what we did was stupid

relizing that

we both ran back to the beginning

to the beginning of the two roads

now we standing side by side

helping one another to stand up right

giving one another a lending hand

as the ways things should be

Sander poem;topic: what we been thourgh. Written last night

while i laugh i cry

i cant explain this feeling

i lost him

now heart broken once more

thinking of all the memories we made hurts

but then i just laugh

even though he hurted me many times befor

he can always bring a smile

across my face

just thinking of his smile

makes me giggle

it turns my whole day around

it just hurts since

i can no longer call him mine…..

A poem i wrote last night; was remebering wat used to be, made me cry then i remeber all those fun and great time i spent with him and then i closed my eyes and all i saw was his smile. i just giggled while tears were runnin down my face.

Urghh idk wat to do anymore im getting into shiet i shouldnt. Hella people telling my bf to break up with me. i dont know why he woudnt because all i have done is hurt him and idk anymore]: freaken bestfriend lied to me and you know wat life just been hell for me. i cant take it anymore. i cant do anything right anymore all i do is cause more problems so why wont i just stop then. why do i always help and at the end i only get hurt. and you know wat JENNY I DONT LIKE SANDER! Blah i need to calm down so far im sorry but ________ just been causing me troubles all the time nd johnson if your reading this ITS NOT YOU but johnson you should know im sorry and i dont get why you wont take those people, who tell you to break up with me, edvice. im not saying i want you to]: im just sayin all i done is make you sad and i cant take it anymore]: why am i goin thourh this why am i loseing all my friends. wat have i done wrong But Watever wat happen happen. Right?

omg omg omg JENNYLEE SEXYY left me]: well well i lied to tutor when he asked me where was my hw i said i left it at the store but the truth is that i didnt do it -____- oh well just double the hw for me so its ok(: well hella bored and and calvin is scaying me BUT HE STOP REPLIN that butt well well well hmmm last nigth i talked to donavan and i was happy after i did(: he always know wat to do and im happy we are still close friend. and his still there hmm hmm wat else ummmm umm Well Jennylee has the funniest imagination ever me sander umm i dont think so no OFFENCE sander but just you know ups and downs(: well me bored and and yeah hmmm well im eattin honey(: YUMMMM

fmylife:

Today, I had my boss and his family over for dinner. Our kids played while waiting for dinner to be ready. Just as we were sitting to eat, our 8-year-olds ran out and my son says “Look at Baxter! I found underwear with a tail hole!” They had found my crotchless panties and put them on the dog. FML

hella funny couldnt stop laughing(: