Serendipity

I have fun every day with my instructor, Stefano, and everyday snowboarding keeps my mind off you. I don’t know, Stefano asked me to promise him never to smoke, for he smokes stoges and he says it is not good, so I promised. But yeah, I have lots of fun with Stefano everyday; snowboarding. I don’t want to go home because when I get home I have to deal with all this drama, and also there is no snow… =/

i wonder how tomorrow would go with the brace.

I think I sprained my wrist. =/

But now I’m relaxing in my undes on the bed. :D

I still miss you, but glad not depress 24/7 now. Now lets hope it stays that way. I’ll Keep telling myself ‘wo bu ai ni’. See you soon, Yeah?

I found a channel that shows all the old cartoons, such as Rocko’s modern life, The Ren & Stimoy Show and Invader Zim. I know what I’ll be watching every night now. :D

but I had a fun day.(:

Now I just have to focuse on not doing anything stupid when I go back home. I still have to talk to my daddy about my arm, I don’t want to be sent away. If my mom see anything, I doubt anyone would be seeing me anytime soon. Also when I say stupid things I mean other stupid things too but no one need to know about those; going to keep those to myself. Night night everybody, night night to you Mister; Dream big. (:

But I feel like I’m learning to let go. All I want is you happy, with or without me.

Can you even tell me what happen’d that day? I really want to know, can you?

I kinda wonder, Do I regret that day…? If that day never happen’d, I wouldn’t be going through so much pain, but then I would have never met you. Now I look back, I guess all they are, are good memories. I think of them I smile and giggle but at the same time tears and pain start to form, for you told me it would always last. You were the one thing I gave all my hope and everything to, the thing I believed in the most; for you know my whole life I never gave so much hope into anything, for everything was never as promised to me. You know I gave you all my trust and you broke it a couple times but I still gave it to you like it was nothing, for I believed in you, everything in my life you were the one person I believe in so much. But all I can say is, I had nice times with you, all the times where all I can remember is my smile and happiness, I’ll miss them. No matter how much I want it back, that wouldn’t happen, would it? And if it is possible, you know I will do anything for you back as my Mister and I as your Honey one more. I wonder do you call her that, because in the beginning I remember you telling me you never call anyone that, I wanted to know if I was something different to you, or if you told that to every girl; I remember you told me I was different. Funny thing is remembering makes me smile. Yes tears are coming from my eyes, but I am glad I even very had those memories with you.(: I miss you, I can’t say that enough, but I think as I promise myself, since I don’t think I can do anything in my will and power to get you back, I’m learning to let you go. For I love you, and your happy without me. I hope when I get back I can go see you. Our time together will always be in my heart and I’ll always look back at them and smile alittle inside. Their the stories one day I’ll tell my kids… Because before if I had said this I would have said our kids, but I guess that has now changed. I love you, always will.

Sadly no more lip ring (Maybe, I STILL WANT REALLY BADLY, but I don’t know.) If anything when I turn 17, tattoo on my left arm, with white ink, something that has to do with love(:

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I need to stop checking up on you/ thinking about you.

In Switzerland, SO BEAUTIFUL! So excited for tomorrow, snowboarding and shopping (lost all my luggage), also skiing.

OHHH, when we landed I saw the most disgusting thing ever, Freaken fat dude with super skinny lady NON-STOP MAKING OUT, you could see the tongue and everything. When you think they would stop THEY GO AT IT AGAIN. Like seriously just go home and get it on there, not in public NASTY! They were like eattign each other faces!! I saw her chin in his mouth, WTF EWW. But yeah, now I’m in the most beautiful room every, with the best view. The presidential suit, I CAN EVEN GO ON ADVENTURES. Happy, because the whole 3 hour ride from the airport to here, all i did was think about you. Now I can just relax and keep my mind off you; keeping my promise to myself. I WILL get somewhat over you; I just need to; I can’t take the late night thinking about you and what your doing with her. Thinking about all the lies, non-stop tears, no more. I can’t handle it anymore.

In Switzerland, SO BEAUTIFUL! So excited for tomorrow, snowboarding and shopping (lost all my luggage), also skiing.

OHHH, when we landed I saw the most disgusting thing ever, Freaken fat dude with super skinny lady NON-STOP MAKING OUT, you could see the tongue and everything. When you think they would stop THEY GO AT IT AGAIN. Like seriously just go home and get it on there, not in public NASTY! They were like eattign each other faces!! I saw her chin in his mouth, WTF EWW. But yeah, now I’m in the most beautiful room every, with the best view. The presidential suit, I CAN EVEN GO ON ADVENTURES. Happy, because the whole 3 hour ride from the airport to here, all i did was think about you. Now I can just relax and keep my mind off you; keeping my promise to myself. I WILL get somewhat over you; I just need to; I can’t take the late night thinking about you and what your doing with her. Thinking about all the lies, non-stop tears, no more. I can’t handle it anymore.

Your not even following me anymore!!!! Oh this is to Donavan fucking Gozon, that asshole.